  Dan dao shou gu li de words of concern so diffcult? Already noe I am du lan n turn e other way round he du lan me! Y is this world pple so fuck one… whenh pple is down, I really interested n concern towards pple, but y when I need corncens no body actually carry out?????????????????? Afternoon @ edwin’s house already said I hav low self-esteem, he n zhuan heard it, n also I said I am extra n useless, they didn’t confort me, but say ya lar, u r useless bla bla bla lar. Even zhuan say so. I believe even though zhuan character is liddat, if he is really trasure the frenship, he will not agree wif me, he should comfort me. N juz now online, he didn’t even show a words of concern onli aft I ask 4 it, n he asked whether had I eaten? Wad is this man, fuck. Me really feeling extra n useless in this world liao, somemore they still luo zing sea shi.
I always been strong, even though I am sensitive towards feelingssssss, if not I would hav really died by suicide liao. I really hope I would do tt, but I always comfort myself PERSONALLY!!!! Sometimes can even feel the real heart ache in it u noe… n u noe how tt feels???? Sometimes when I feel hurt I really enjoy the hurt. I onli got 1 true fren, zhuan, n he liddat treat me.
Becoz of yesterday massage, he 2day said me besides massage, I am useless!~ how cum pple whu re bad get so many gd things???????????????????????????? Maybe I am the bad one….dono lar. No stead nor true frenz liao… my death shall make no diff in this world. Even my 2nd aunt also fed uip wif me………………….. my freq is juz totally diff frm everyone in this world lar, maybe next time when I survice, I shall commit crimes to make myself happy. Yea, juz now when I really enjoy toking, they both say I am vv noisy……….. but if I keep quiet, I really feel sad sad sad sad.
Like tt day in coffee shop above Mac, n always last time, they would always suan me, I display a sad face n they nv ever bother! As I said, wad 4 be such a gd person, no one realizes it at all. When I am gd, nth happen, when I bad abit, pple will say me bad 4 plenty of things, as if I was not gd at all. 
