  What a week this has been thus far and here it is only Wednesday. First, my former employer calls up and asks for me to return to work for them. They gave me 8 hours to decide. My temporary assignment must have impressed them or something because when I was certain that I would never return there to work but I was mistaken. Monday morning I returned to work and so far, I'm doing all and more of what they would have me do.
Yes, the pay remains the same. Then, last night another company calls me after I had a phone interview last week with them. I have an interview with them, face to face, on Friday afternoon. On top of this, I've been having some problems with my chest hurting. I think I may have done too much with some weights recently or I'm just not using them correctly. Whatever the case may be, it hurts like hell at times. The last two or three days I've not done any major exercise and maybe that'll help somewhat.
Monday night I heard from my Ex. Seems he injured himself during a baseball game and was due to have surgery yesterday. I wished him a speedy recovery. Maybe I should send a get-well card? Nah. In many ways, all that I have become since moving here to Fort Worth is because of what I have experienced in the past ten years of my life. I have dreams. Goals that far exceed the norm but I just can't seem to focus on them lately. I have this dream of success but not sure right now what that success should engross. Personally, I have both new and older friends and a special someone to thank but spiritually, I'm lacking and I know this more than most might imagine. It's not that I don't believe in God. I simply wonder what's the purpose of my life at this juncture. Or maybe I'm rushing the outcome of it all because I truly and deeply fear The Long Sleep that's never-ending. Will anyone remember me? Will anyone recall that I influenced their life at one point or another?
Will they notice that I'm no longer around? I guess I could spend the remainder of my life seeking to please everyone else but myself. I could take for granted love as I have in the past and have nothing to show for it in the end. I could do many things as I have done in the past and be no better off but if I continue to live in regret I'll never know what the other side of the coin has to offer unless I flip it over and take chances and risks where they are needed most.
There are many roads to travel in life because we each make choice we have no idea what will become of them down one of those untraveled roads we must venture upon. We cast our luck into the wind and hope for the best. We can only make the best possible decision based on the circumstances at that particular moment. The rest is up to consequence and the ever-changing realm of possibility that forever evolves to suit the needs of Fate in this unbalanced universe of ours.
Crashing back to earth now.... Received a PS 2 as my "early" birthday gift (June 18th is the official date for all those wishing to send me an Ecard for my Bday). Thanx Tony. Love you! Return to Louisiana this weekend to gather together the remainder of my things in storage. A collection of boxes and what not that have been kept in a tin building at a storage facility since September of 2003.
I guess you can say that after this weekend, everything I have will be a little closer to where I now reside. I'll sleep better at night knowing this. Found a really cool bookstore, Half Priced Books , and have begun collecting books again. I am hoping to read some this summer. I love books. Also want to find a nice little cafe somewhere that I can escape to for an hour or so and maybe, just maybe, begin writing again.
Something worthy of my talent to put words to paper if you will. Something with substance. Something ... inviting to the imagination. Reader beware. Don't laugh but I plan to go and see Shrek 2! very soon. Call me a 'kid at heart'. God knows that I haven't aged in the last ten years. Just wait, they say. It'll catch up to you one day real soon. Like all things I suppose, we can't escape every aspect of time and destiny. 
