  I am beginning to really get out of control. Jumpy with every single thing, I am on the verge of a complete break down.
I am walking, not even so slowly, on the sharp edge of a blade and my flesh is scored by dozens of cuts (no urlLink Negar, not like your friend !). My heart is beating at the rhythm of thousand drums, emotions are&nbsp;boiling in me and it seems I am never able to let go of them.
Not enough at least. My muscles are tensed, my brain is hazed and every single fiber in my body cries to be pushed further and faster: and me, I go through moments when I dare and push and when I am scared and hold back. A cry seems to be forever stuck in my throat. I know I am on the verge of&nbsp;falling or exploding or simply shattering into pieces. 
