  i feel wicked lonely...and i don't know why...its this unfathomable and inexcapable lonliness...i don't think i could be more lonely if everyone on the earth died...i don't think i could be less lonely if my best friend showed up right now...its like an invisible wall seperating me from humanity...boy do i hate being a guy...seriously in the locker room today the talk was just absolutely disgusting...learned a new word actually...wonderful! bet i will use it often...i just wanted to tear into everyone of them and tell them what perverts they all are. doubtful they would care... i really need to be away from all people...seriously EVERYONE IS JUST WICKED myself included. will tomorrow be better? was today bad? better than yesterday???
what does the future hold? a wife? a family? a job? celibacy? homelessness?
drug addiction? illegitimate child? christian ministry? opulence? poverty? intelligence?
stupidity? a life-changing accident? death of a loved one? country ruled by a dictator? OH TO BE IN HEAVEN. jenna said "tro" in her prom prospectus and wow isnt that the hottest word ever.
definitely at least a word of the week. Don't let drowning ruin your summer. Paddle smart from the start. I want to go to NYC and bask in my lonliness amidst a swell of humanity. i dunno. i am just exhausted... 
