  Steph came over tonight and when she came in she hugged me and told me she loved me. We watched some of American Idol, but then she left a few minutes ago to go next door to Eric's. I'm trying so hard to be ok with this. I'm trying so hard not to act weird or let her think it bothers me, but it so bothers me. I don't know why either. For crying out loud I'm married, but I still think my neighbor is hot. The green eyed monster in me wants what she is able to give and receive from him. I want to be the one he calls and im's during the day. Someone, anyone, please, come knock me up the side of my head and get these thoughts outta me. 
