  I honestly can't put my thoughts into words at the moment, besides for HOLY SHIT! Honestly.....I can't speak.... Everything that I thought was true, everything that I just believed.....GONE OUT THE WINDOW!!!
oh my god. What the hell am I going to do? Wow...talk about throwin' my mind for a loop. I...never expected that. Next I'm going to find out that both of my recent girlfriends are druggies or sumthin'...OH MY GOD!!!
I thought I was blind about the Tina thing....SHIT son.....I missed sumthin' even bigger..well, not more important....sumthin' probably even more obvious. ...dang... Alright, now that I have said that....but not even close to out of my system. This must be what a mental breakdown feels like. Now...for most people...this probably wouldn't be such a big thing. But I'm good little Mormon boy....I don't do anything wrong...well....ok, that's a lie. But....SHIT! just.....wow. Just saw Spiderman 2 for the second time. I really want to memorise that section of dialogue between Peter and his aunt.
That totally explaiins to everyone why on Earth I would ever hurt myself for others like I do. **Namely Tina. ** I think I might have to talk to her again, this shit is too much to think through. Damn...out. Spense FUCKIN' CHRIST! This night just keeps gettin' better and better. NOT! **Adult content in this blog entry...keep virgin ears away** translation:I'm gonna do a FUCK-load of swearing! SHITFUCKASSFUCKSHITBITCHCUNTASSFUCKTARDSHITPENISCUNTRAGFUCKSHITHEAD! and that's only the beggining folks!
I just read Brittany's blog. it said that Tina was "hyper happy" at the movie. I asked her why. She said that maybe Tina should tell me. I convinced her to tell me anyway. Cobian asked out Tina. The NEXT FUCKIN' DAY AFTER I TELL TINA I HAVE TO MOVE ON, Cobian asks her out? Smell sumthin' fishy?!?!?! Cobian helped me come to that conclusion...after talking with him, I came to that conclusion. FUCKER!
It sure is fun bein' stabbed in the back. I fuckin' help them anyway I can to try and get together. I leave, the next FUCKIN' day, guess what happens? This is just too well timed to NOT be planned. FUCKYOUYOUASSFUCKINPIECEOFSHITEATINBUTTFUCKERCUNTRAGASSHOLE! GODDAMNIT! I've felt suicidal before...but this is the exact opposite. I want to live on, but I want OTHERS to die....at my hands. This is full-out homicidal. Congratulations Cobian. fuck you.
Spense 
