  Blatant signs... Ok another quick post. Coming out of the bathroom this morning I hear a thud on my window, I go to check it out, and its a bird that flew into my recently cleaned windows. I live up on the top floor apartment and my bedroom is kinda like a dormer so I have a roof right outside my window and poor Mr. bird is just laying there yes Mr. bird, a female bird isn't stupid enough to fly into a window. I figured I'd give the poor thing a few moments to get over the shock and most likely he would fly away, I've seen it happen many times when I worked at fotomat. So an hour later I go back and check on him, he's still there, this isn't just shock. Ok suns getting up in the sky, roofs getting hot, the poor thing is going to bake to death.
I grab a laundry basket to throw him in, and figure I'd go get him a cage and keep him comfortable until I could take him to the vet. So I open my window and start climbing out on the roof, I get close, but then he freaks out, and tries to fly away from me and falls off the roof broken wing and all. Horrified I run down 4 flights of stairs and around the building looking for Mr. bird. There are lots of bushes, so if he died in them I wouldn't find them.
I felt horrid, in trying to save something, I most likely killed it. I wish the universe would stop sending me such blatant signs, I am smart enough to get it without killing things. I really do believe it is a sign too. I think I just scared off a friend by sending her a poem I wrote from where I imagined her perspective to be. It is a traight I learned when writting for Paul, and I don't like to do it, you feel weird doing it. I just had to put my two cents in, she is going through a tough time, and I know I will have the same issues when I am where she is now. I hope for two things, one that I got her feelings right, and two,(and more importantly) she doesn't hate me for doing that.
I am not trying to save everyone, in fact this friend doesn't need saving, only to hear that it's ok to feel the way she does. I was trying to explain to her, I kinda know how she feels by writing down how I would feel if I were there. Oh well, enough saving the world for a bit, don't want to send any other birds over the edge. urlLink postCount('108342111029975074'); | urlLink postCountTB('108342111029975074'); 
