  Time for some clarification... Ok as if you haven't guessed by now, I have a few "issues" with rejection right now from people in my past both personally and professionally. It has come to my attention that by me generalizing I have offended some people who I did not intend to do this to. I have been very careful not to use anyone's real name, unless it is a name only known to them and I. People should know if they have wronged me or not, so please do not feel included in the insults unless I specifically point you out. As you can tell on my site I am not a shy person. So far one of the few people I have outwardly specifically pointed out was my ex coworker tubby. Sorry there bud but you kind of hurt me allot by "keeping two sets of books" the one you showed to my face, and the other one you used with others behind my back.
I have always been careful who I keep as my friends I let you in, and you disappointed me, so yes I feel you are a prick for that, sorry but I still feel, ok. I left out a whole bunch of people with direct insults due to the fact that they are not worth anything to me, but several of my old companies business partners were not kind with their words, but I felt them not worth the effort to insult.
I feel so TERRIBLE though that my ex-boss felt included in my insults. Only a few of you reading this know who he is, and I won't mention him by name, since it doesn't matter, BUT I AM SORRY. I feel horrible that I offended him with my indirect insults, they were not intentional. I greatly respect this man, even though I did not see eye to eye with him all the time. We at times were on opposite ends of things, but I followed this mans lead and he produced and helped me produce.
I hope he did not include himself in my reference to my gaining privilege from "an old school sexist few". That comment was pointed at my employer before him, that employer moved me up the ladder really quick and over women with more qualifications than I. It was my position in that company that helped me get into my last job. Every thing I earned in my last job was just by following directions, using my innovation, and working my ass off. My last boss in the job I came from IS NOT A SEXIST. I used to get in arguments with other people who thought our company was a boys club, it wasn't.
Yes he did get rid of some women, but it wasn't about gender, it was work ethic and production. I tend to shy away from these conversations when others bring it up, as not to hurt their feelings. I have had time to be dissconected from it, and see it on both sides, so my perception is different than others right up in it. I have had mixed emotions about my leaving my last job. Was it about my being trans of course it was, but it was me who left. My boss brought up some good points that it would be difficult for things to be handled with all this change, and I agreed with him.
I regret every day that I did though, it was the first big fight that I walked away from. I was just so emotional distraught and not thinking clearly I took it, I wish now I had taken some time and thought some more about it. I am ashamed that I was a coward. I am not mad at him or anyone else for my unemployment, I refuse to blame anyone or anything other than myself.
I was presented a problem, and a choice of solutions, I took the easy way out. Only time will tell if I made the right decision. I hope this puts all the whispers and rumors to rest. I apologize to all I inadvertently hurt, by either perceived inclusion in insults or my lack of inclusion in thanks. I am posting allot and at a very high pace, sorry for any misunderstandings. As for those of you with no intrest in this matter sorry for boring you. urlLink postCount('107844235092552833'); | urlLink postCountTB('107844235092552833'); 
