  Out with the girls... Twenty was cool, lots of interesting topics. A very nice, but very hurt SO came and shocked the room, we were all quiet for about two minutes until someone broke the silence. It is tough because most of us trannies already feel tremendous guilt for doing this. We feel selfish, or a failure for not being able to live as our birth sex, I personally feel both and many other bad feelings about this journey. This isn't all sunshine and lolipops, there is no victory in this journey, only a better level of comfort. The basic thing we get out of this is to quiet the screaming voice that is telling us we are the wrong sex, every other problem still remains, and new ones come too.
We all seemed a little hesitant to talk too much about it, we didn't want to hurt her feelings and tell her this is how it has to be,but her spouse has a right to do what is right for her too. It truly is a really tough situation, and my heart goes out to both of them. I feel for both of their losses, and I gave them my e-mail & Co's e-mail so they could talk and share.
It was a big step for her to come tonight, I told her at dinner she should be proud for being understanding enough to come for her spouse. I volunteered to monitor and run the elections for twenty, nobody else looked willing to do it, so why not? I am new enough not to have preferences of one person over another, and I am too new to run for office myself, so it is a perfect job for me. I am actually honored that they agreed to let me do it, and I love to help out when I can. I am so new to this business of being out, and feel so helpless in offering help. This is a good way for me to pitch in a little. Maybe next time elections come up I will volunteer my services there. If nobody gets nominated for treasurer, maybe, just maybe I will place myself up for nomination for that position.
I just feel too new to be an officer yet, I need to pay my dues, before I can collect them(insert snare drum, and symbol sounds here. ) I also went out with a group of the girls after twenty down to a cool Mexican place. I have never been out to a real Mexican place, never mind with a group of my peers. It was cool to hang around and just talk to my fellow trannies in a non support group setting. We have so much in common it isn't funny. I was the youngest one there, but my story goes like theirs almost verbatim except that thanks to their generation and their peers paving the way I have the courage to do it at a much younger age.
I have benefited greatly from the hard work and sacrifices of those who went before me, they have paved a road for my generation. It is up to me and others like me to make sure that road stays in good shape, and even gets improvements if possible for those who come behind us. My dream is to someday not need groups like ours. A time where we understand gender enough, and are comfortable enough about it that we let our adolescents make that choice themselves.
I doubt I or my children will ever see that day, but why should that stop me from trying to make it happen. I am sure my parents never thought man would land on the moon, but we did shortly before I was born. I am sure people like Rosa Parks never thought she would be able to ride on the front of the bus or eat with whites at a lunch counter, but today they do.
Nothing is totally impossible to achieve in life as long as you try. Very little is possible in this life if you don't try. Ok enough of Ash on her soap box, I have some nomination notification emails to go write for twenty. Happy Easter to my Christian friends, and an even happier spring to my non Christian friends. Same goes for my enemies too. Love to all, g'nite. urlLink postCount('108164356215732523'); | urlLink postCountTB('108164356215732523'); 
