  I've been in a ratty, pissy mood. However! today's payday, and that should help.&nbsp; The deposit should go in at about midnight, and I bet I'll get a little lift.&nbsp; More good news is, I have most of this weekend off.&nbsp; I was gonna work all the way through, which would've been terrific on my final paycheck, but I think it may be just as well that I have the time.&nbsp; I&nbsp;do need to get what's left of my shit together without a looming time constraint. I need to&nbsp;spend some quality time by myself at an air conditioned &nbsp;movie theater.&nbsp; And I think after that I'm gonna take my non-virtual journal out for a drink or two, and get detangled.&nbsp; I think my mood has at least partly to do with my being pretty tangled. Some mid-scale and a few bigger-scale thoughts and circumstances have been fairly seriously tangled, lately.&nbsp; Time to sort myself and my current life all out, and get it all in front of me where I can see.&nbsp; Some it's family stuff, some of it's planning questions, painful lessons, things where I&nbsp;think I may have &nbsp;been left in the dark (or the dust), old stuff surfacing just for good measure, physical stuff, existential stuff, etc.
etc..&nbsp; I need to spend a cool free day or two doing nothing but&nbsp;Tetris-ing my&nbsp;life down to just one or two layers from the bottom of the screen. 
