  Hullo. I'm working overtime all weekend (yay for cash, boo for no time to do anything fun). But just before I go, if I win my little bid, I'll be buying a present for myself off Ebay. I've never done Ebay, before, so we'll see if I've got the hang of it. I've been casting about for answers to the problems of my day to day life for weeks upon weeks (and to be honest, even longer), problems exacerbated to a wretched mess due to my stupid schedule. It's actually a vicious cycle: Crappy Schedule=>Depression=>Crappy Schedule seems like an even bigger deal=>Worse Depression=>Sleep Trouble=>Now Crappy Schedule Can go Fuck Itself And Burn In Pit Of Hell=>No Life Outside Work and Sleep=>Much Worse Depression=>You Get The Idea. Well, I'll have this exact schedule until I leave in July, and I can't just sit around and mope about it and wish it were different. I'm leaving in July, ready or not. So I have to work with the stupid schedule, somehow ; get out of the house and run errands, get organized, get ready, pare things down, get moving. I have long-haul motivation, but I'm having trouble being excited from day to day, which is what the long haul is made of. So. I'm seeing a line in the sand, because the end of July is very fast approaching. I want my life and self to be in order and healthy, or well on the way, before then, so I can leave feeling terrific and excited, rather than disappointed and ill-prepared.
To end on a happy, hopeful note: I got a re-issue of my permit. I'm gonna go take the written test this coming week, and schedule a driving test for the following Monday. That's a day that works great for both Aimee H., who's car she is graciously letting me use *kisskissAimee*, and me.
She'll take me for a practice jaunt and test me herself before we head toe the DMV. WIth any luck and hopefully a bit of skill, I will, at the tender age of 35, finally be a licensed motor vehicle operator! Say me a prayer (who's the patron saint of cars and driving? ) and wish me lotsa luck. 
