  wow.  it was such a mixed feelings kinda day.  dunno wad 2 feel leh.  Chinese ORchestra was so damn bloody boring 2day.  spent d whole tym day practicing by my lonesome coz most of d section didn't come while d others really suck or were slacking off sumwhere as well as chatting wif every1 else n trying 2 liven up d whole damn CO.  gosh.
 if dis goes on.  i'll die lah.  really muz form a ccommittee by myself n give a proposal 4 revampment 4 d CO!  haha.  Kelly damn funny lah.  try 2 snatch my fone away frm me n run.
 wah lau.  RUN!  haha.  neway,  didn't manage 2 get far lah.  but had 2 bully her in2 giving it back 2 me.
 neway.  X training seems so sad too lah!  only 2 guys went 4 training!  n oh.  check dis out.  4 gals 4 training!
 its really so sad 2 watch lah!  den in d end,  out of dunno how many pple in d X team,  only 6 went 4 training 4 ACJC X team.  haiz.  we muz all b damn tired.
 neway.  it doesn't matter lah.  soon enuf,  every1 will b back 2 strength n hopefully start coming!  neway,  deres a race tml.
 which i hv no idea y lah.  so screwed up rite?  put a X country race lyk 2 wks after d end of d season?  haha.  well.  went out wif lyk sum pple in my OG 2day,
 n it really disturbed me tt Elizabeth who joined us 4 awhile supported my fren whom she juz got 2 noe 2day instead of me during bowling.  yeah.  it kinda disturbed me n affected my performance lah.  m i tt lousy a person?  hmm.  i dunno.
 haiz.  neway.  Valarie kinda got rejected lah.  n i really feel bad 4 her.  really hope tt she can brace herself n pull thru coz she's a really good n close fren.  1 tt oways hear my problems.
 well.  yeah.  she feels heartbroken lah.  but.  i've or at least im doin my best 2 help her.  well.
 i dunno lah.  can oways help me fren n other pple wif their affairs of d heart.  yet i suck horribly at settling my own!  yeah.  m still wondering how d 2 gals feel abt me lah.  actually in actual truth n in reality.
 i only wanna noe wad Reina thinks abt me n feels abt me.  or at least her impression lah.  coz.  at dis moment or rather 4 d past 2- 3 mths.  tts wad has been d most critical thing in my life.
 or rather.  its d thing tt i wanna noe d most.  no offence 2 meiyi lah.  its not tt i dun care abt her feelings.  but guess.  in reality,
 d person whom i care 4 n means d most 2 me rite now is still Reina.  but.  unfortunately 4 me.  i seriously think tt she doesn't blieve me n still doesn't trust my feelings 4 her.  haiz.  is it so hard 2 understand tt i wun cheat gals of their feelings?
 n xpecially those or d 1 whom i really lyk?  damn it lah.  i dunno how 2 convince her nemore.  d feeling really sux rite now.  coz after all tt i've done,  i think Reina still doesn't get how i feel abt her.
 xpecially when d feelings r genuine n definately sincere.  haiz.  lks lyk i've 2 go back n start 2 think n drain my mind again.  think of a way 2 convince her.  haiz.  juz pray tt i dun hv 2 sacrifice my life 4 it,
 coz den.  it'll b meaningless when i die only 4 her 2 realise it once im dead.  yeah.  im praying tt i'll b able 2 convince her soon enuf coz she's all tt matters rite now.  * Live Life To The Fullest!
