  If I am going to bitch about work one more time, I am think I might as well go commit suicide. The nightmares are really killing my sanity.
Really really. But today (just oneeeee more time :P) is a stressful day as well, just like any other day. My point is, when I came back home, it was late. Then he came online. And I felt calm and collected again. Then I am thinking, to have someone in your mind IS really really important. Otherwise I wouldn't be able to move my focus to somewhere else.
I remembered I was asking Derric, does he know anyone who is looking for a freelance relationship right now. Chinese. Male. Age 28 and above. Status single/married/engaged/divorced/attached. Man, I do have a lot of screwed up relationships in my life! Right now I have a plan. I am going to focus to get someone to marry me. So that I can stay at home and be fat :} Isn't that like my focus 5 years ago?
=\ Look where I am right now. You know what. Some years ago I was reading an interview with Shaz and she was saying things like she is single and totally screwed up in relationships. This morning I was listening to the radio, this woman now is happily married and going to have a kid. That really amazes me. I still couldn't believe nobody wants to propose to me. Damn it. 
