  Blogging is a funny thing for me. It's hit and miss as to when I will have the time and motivation to Blog - hence the sporadic entries.
It's also funny that for as little time as I have it seems like my life is not that exciting. I feel as though I lost my 'storytelling ability' along the way. I think I used to have the ability....but years ago I found myself doing a lot more listening than talking. Friends of mine can have a conversation or an event and repeat it back almost verbatim. I find myself giving the abbreviated version.
e.g. I went to dinner with a few of the other playgroup moms tonight. (true, by the way) That would be about the extent of my description if asked, other than maybe 'it was nice and I had fun. ' Other people I know could then go into excruciating detail about the restaraunt, the food, the conversation, the clothes everyone was wearing, the nose ring in the waitress' ear, yada, yada, yada. It is tough for me to do that. Especially in verbal conversation, but even somewhat in the Blog. I think this makes me exceptionally boring. I sometimes wish I could be a more outgoing talker, but then sometimes I get bored by how inane some of the comments end up being when someone is an extroverted talker --- because a person can go too far. Anyway, I really did get out tonight for moms' night out with a few of my friends. The conversation got extremely personal and I shared more of myself than I normally do. I was asked point blank if we are planning to get pregnant again, and I answered honestly. Yes, when/if I lose weight to have a healthier pregnancy.
The conversation turned of course to my previous pregnancy which, while it gave me my incredibly wonderful son was also the most stressful roller coaster I have ever been on and not an exact experience I would like to repeat. Yes, I would love to have more children. No, I do look forward to going through all the shots, pills, appointments, etc.... that I went through last time. Nor would I want to be on another 10.5 weeks of bedrest with several bouts of hospitalization and the expectation of having triplets which led to the devastation of losing two babies along the way... one during the pregnancy and one after the birth.
I don't know if I could survive another experience like that. Wow, I guess I needed to get a lot off my chest after starting earlier tonight. Anyway, overall it was a good night out. I have missed having really close female friends these past few years and these particular women have reached out and been so supportive over the last few years --- it is just so difficult for me to open up. 
