  this life ain't be too easy...growin up n all. i've dealt with a lotta shit...ask anyone, from gabriel, my boy from san jose elementary, to my boys alex, matt, and ben from reed, to my family at granada, matt, osama, phil... but i'm here now. still breathing. still alive. no thanks to the man above...if he had his way, i'd be long gone...i mean, i'm not even supposed to be alive rite now... i've been flirting with death ever since god stole caroline. something happened a few days ago that has made me re-examine the way i act, the way i keep myself in check.
i've been broken, tortured, but not beaten. i have yet to be beaten. i pray for you noor...i pray that everyday, you wake up with a tender smile on your face...that your bruises humble your soul...that you may be strong enough to face whatever abuse your father dishes out. i pray for you noor. phil prays for you. matt prays for you.
osama prays for you. the blind prophets pray for you. my brother prays for you. scott prays for you. preeti prays for you. jessica prays for you.
even iisha, more than anyone else except me, prays for you. i am here for you. my eyes grow teary as i write these words. i am here. always. helpless we may stand...but we will get through this.
you will get through this... yeh...i've been broken...you don't understand how much it takes for me to break down and cry. the last time was when i couldn't see you and it felt like forever. the time before that was in 6th grade after someone told me that cuz of my looks, i wouldn't amount to shit. the next time someone said that, i left em' without their teeth. i love you to death...and you may not know for the next 2 years...but you will find out...i promise and i have yet to break a promise to you. this i promise you...that you'll always be mine.
no one else can ever come close to where you have been placed in my heart. NO ONE. these words are meaningless without feeling...and i put all my feeling into this... i cry as i speak to you... i beg mercy from satan...to leave us alone. please ...god please let us be. just me and her. just let us be.
be my wife noor. be my everything. you ARE my everything. you are me. i am you. WE ARE ONE. 
