  i was doing that thing where i was looking through the blog. god, i seem whiny. also i worry about inconsequential issues. also i am really banal. and god am i obsessed with my weight or what. im pathetic. im ridiculous.
and i seem a little superficial too. so life goes on in pak rahman's. i got my korner where there is no tension, all going ok except the fact my days are numbered. i am preparing to take flight really soon and do some real work. government service, here i come. but not teaching though. i decided against it after some hard thinking. and i have the whole phd plans in my head.
some stupid thing that im obsessed abt is the 'turning back the clock' fantasy. also im obsessed by the notion of running far far away. i know it sounds pathetic. to tell you the truth, i went back into a depression in the later part of the evenin today (no it doesnt mean im manic)..just felt really bloody low. really really low. i'd like to do things differently. i really would. oh please let me do things differently. god.. 
