  I am now officially depressed. Someone please hand over the Prozac. Firstly Issa has left town and with him some good memories of Carleton. I was supposed to get on that flight with him. Im supposed to be enjoying spring and not working my ass off in Singapore. And today at work, everything went wrong and boss was not too happy with me. Especially that i was so distracted at work last week, trying to take issa around.
and everything is piled up high on my desk and he is breathing down my neck. Secondly, that my adviser and confidante, karthik is not in singapore and has gone to India. I dont have anyone else to talk to. It feels kinda lonely. I cant wait for the week to be over and for him to be back. he tends to be able to cheer me out of any situation. and now he isnt here and there is all the backlash of last week hanging on me.
sheesh. Thirdly, today i came to the realization that where i really belong is grad school and not this architectural joint. Im not really motivated by my work here. I really enjoyed school. I want to return to school. I want to get the phD. i wonder who will write my recommendation now that I have messed up with the carleton scholarship. double sheesh. life is sorta of bleak right now. 
