  i think im getting pms again. boys, dont read this entry. its terrible , me and my hormones. I tend to get very depressed, my hair gets oily and i will burst into tears on the final day. then it comes. i call it 'the visitor'. the visitor usually stays for about four days. now many girls envy that about me, because the usual is 6- 10 days. what they do not know is that is the most godawful four days of my life accompanied by frequent weeping.
also, that im in so much pain, i can hardly walk. the pain is very very very bad. my mom thinks i ought to see a doctor abt that pain. i need to see a gynaecologist anyway. im already 25 and i ought to start that pap smear thing. doesnt help matters that im still a freaking virgin though, i better talk to him about that too. i have no idea how they are gonna perform a pap smear with that. i am serious abt pap smears because a friend of mine had a cyst and all that and they had to remove the whole womb.
and she was only 22 at that time. and all because she didnt get regular pap smear check-ups. its scary. i wouldnt want my womb removed. i would like to have two children if i can (somewhere in the future) hopefully a boy and a girl. i have decided to name the boy sky. i think its a beautiful name. actually i was thinking : sky daveenpaul . daveen is after my father who is baldev and paul after me. i hope my future husband agrees to it. i havent figured what to name the girl yet. something pretty... and they can be born in hawaii if i decide to marry a beach bum. 
