  "stripclubmemories" man replied to comments in my comments box. He was very polite. I suppose that his site just hit a little close to home for me. I hope that ppl in general do not think strippers lead glamorous fantasy lives. Strippers strip because of some financial need they are forced within their minds that is all there is left to do. Some strippers are totally all about the money and that goes for all avenues of their life !
you know what i mean by that - bling bling. Money made on vanity does not last. I only know 1 stripper that started a business with her money. My guy and I at this point are no longer speaking at least on my part. He cant fight by himself & I feel theres nothing left to say that I have not already said & Im sick of the sound of my own voice repeating the same crap to him on a daily basis. Im exhausted from his ways.
I know you cannot change a person Im only faced with the option of leaving him. Im not gonna be that fool woman that sits home while her significant other is out and about. I know fools & I refuse to grow old unhappily like them. I even know some from my church. I dont think you should stay married for life if it brings out the worst in you and them.I am with the most selfish man on earth & I told him so. Im with a manipulator at its worst , so much so I dont even know who the real him is !
I suppose that the real him may be someone I really dont want to know. He trys to talk to me when Im unhappy with him & I am at the point where talking is useless. He makes me seem and feel like such a bitch. The only way this relationship would work is if I was submissive.Im a giver , hes a taker. I want to be a giver to a giver. I would do anything for my guy if he was worth it.
I tried to do that for my guy for the first 4 years & he just kept taking and took all he can with nothing in return. Im not materialistic, I dont ever ask for anything other than the normals ( like bills being paid on time ). I clean the whole yard & house by myself always. My guy does NOTHING - he goes to work. I think he works really hard at work BUT I think he needs to a little bit around the house too. When I worked full time (my whole workable life from 16 and on) I did all that I did now too.
If I had a job I would still do all I do now too. I want a teamplayer.....I want someone who thinks about a year from now - my guy thinks about tomorrow. At the rate he is going he will end up poor when he is trying to retire. I dont even know if he will ever be able to retire. PLUS what I am also shocking out about is that he is in the gym training thinking he can still dance ( strip ) and still has it at 35!!!!! I cant wait to see how fast he is rejected.
He is addicted to the sexiness of it.. see how sad the industry really is ! 
