  I at one time in my life was a follower of James Van Praagh. I hung on every word that he said and believed. I want to know why I did that. I want to know why I idolized him so. I have been what you would call spiritual or a new ager all my life.
I am not that way anymore. I am new but the world and the ways of the world are not new. Did I think I was being open minded by saying and being that way ? Was I accomplishing anything truely spiritual. I learned to meditate & contact a spirit or so it came to me.
I learned to photograph spirits & see them in photos. I want to know who these spirits are & why they are not in heaven & did they choose to just appear for a bit and then go to heaven , or is heaven here and they are intermingled with us ? I asked a million questions on James Van Praaghs site & never got one of em answered. I sent in my photos of spirits I took for their photo gallery & never had one posted AND my photos are real.
I never even had 1 email answered as to why the pictures couldnt be posted. I was always told by other operators that the website manager was too busy BUT I noticed she is not too busy to post photos of herself in the photo gallery. I want to know why the spirits that talk to James dont talk about what level of heaven they are in ( according to the levels ).
Isnt heaven just heaven ? I have been back and forth with all this for years and years and it just doesnt make any sense to me. I mean my gosh how long has James Van Praagh been talking to the dead & thats all hes got to say. I would ask more if I was him. I was shocked when James Van Praagh said on the radio here "dont get me started about the bible, that was written by man".
I wonder why James Van Praagh decided to not become a priest after all those years of studying. I myself can not account for alot of things that go on this world as well but I just think he should of gave more. I do now believe that angels of dark can masquerade as angels of light. I am swaying toward believing that those are dark souls fooling him. If you spend so much time in different avenues of new age-ism's and not on god arent they all just really a distraction and isnt that a sign of the wrong kind of spiritual awakening. Isnt that more like the awakening of an anti-christ type. I mean how many new age type things can 1 person possbily be into,, theres thousands.
I am starting to think it is all just a big distraction, it certainly distracted me.... til I died. I have a hard time deprogramming myself from the way I was raised & what I believed ( so open minded spiritually ) I know that after I died my eyes started to open & I saw good & evil and evil where I didnt think it was evil b4 ( shocking me )I was shocked and still am at how subtely evil has slipped in & become normal where it once wasnt.
If I wouldnt of died I would still be on the wrong path. I never got peace from the path I was on because I was still searching even though I was doing peaceful spiritual things ( but in the name of what and without even realizing it and that is the deception ) It is hard to deprogram myself , sometimes I want to cry because some of the things I did I like.
Yoga is an example, ppl hate that one, Im in the process of getting ready to get rid of my yoga stuff. I can still stretch. Yoga poses have specific meanings that are in praise of the divine BUT what divine ? Yoga is associated with the Hindu religion and anyone can do searches on the net and see all that yoga is attached to spiritually.
I just sit here and look at my yoga books and cards & know how amazing it makes me feel to do yoga but can one do it like i do and not acknowledge that the poses have spiritual meaning and what are you awakening. I want to know why Yoga has taken off so big NOW and never b4. I would think something so amazing would have been spread like it is b4 now. I am aware of the Spiritual Awakening that is taking place now ( i have a relative that is a medium so I know all about it ).
I wonder where she gets her info from ( exactly who spiritually ) .. oh its just all so complicated. I mean can i really be so into Jesus and still acknowledge all else that is going on & how does he tie into all this new agie tpye spiritual stuff? 
