  " 2 days notice" Sorry I havent been updating the blog these past 2 days, but i just haven't had the time. I'll start catching up by telling about wednesday: I was supossed to had been in the cinema with mik, but then all the sudden lars wrote early in the morning that he was home now. Just the fact that I was one of the first persons he wrote to when he got home really told me that he hadn't forgotten me. We arranged to meet that evening so I had to cancel with mik, cuz I was afraid that if I posponed it, then he would change his mind. sadlt then he fell aslepp around 5 o clock and slept all night, since he hadnt slept for a long time. I was a little mad at him there, but I could understand him cuz I've tryed it myself and you are really tirated... I stayed up till 1 just hopeing that he might wake up and to get my thoughts straight. I was so close to give up on him then, cuz It was once out of a million times that something had come between us. Luckely I didn't and the next morning we began to write again after he had apologized ofcourse ;) He wanted me to come down to one of his friends and get some beer. i invited a friend along and she came over at my house first where we had a couple of beers. OH! and I drank a can beer on 34 seconds - New record !! :D Well after I did that a couple of times I was already pretty drunk and so was my friend.
Lars had promissed that he would write when we schould come, cuz we had agreed to meet in this bar they where heading for, but then it started to rain :-/ We never made it over to the friend, but My dad drove me over to lars at 11 so we could watch that movie I had got for him and eat some popcorn. While we saw the movie we got to talk about us ofcourse... HE acctuatly told me that he had never tryed falling so fast for a girl he had just met, nor asking her home on their forst date(he means that he asked me home 5 days after we met) I can scence in some way that he really likes me, and thats why he can't really let go everytime we brake up. Me using all the info from my friend and the psykology things I had picked up from him, I pretty much got him convinced that all our "problems" could be salved together now.
(just so you kow then the problem with us is that he is afraid to open to much up and love me completely cuz I'll be able to hurt him to much then) I think it sweet, but a bit hard for me to deal with, but I'm gonna try for his and mines sake. It's not like I'm in a hurry right :) besiedes that then my dad saw my piercing yesterday while we where eating alone.
I just thought that this was it, and that I had to take it out and get grounded for 3 years... but instead then he agreed with me that it was my body and that it was prolly best not to tell my mum... That was really surpricing to hear from him. I'm gratefull, but I still know that he will betray me if I upset him the least, so I have to be carefull for the next time period until he kinda has forgotten.. Well that was sort of what happened the last couple of days... ¨maria 
