  Is there no one?! Yesterday I asked my father for help against my mum. I almost got down on my knees and begged for him to see things my way and agree that she is not treating my right, but instead of his understanding and comford, he just said that it was mine and my mum's battle...! He wont help me! He is too loyal towords my mum to help his own daugther who needs his help more than ever.
Well that was it. I can just as well give up and stop fighting. From now on my mum can do with me what ever she wants. I'll dissapear and bcome an empty shell to the world... another thing is - I've descided to write a message to lars that goes like this: is it just me who misses us like we were? I know something happened that schouldn't happen, but this is too hard! I kepp feeling like we gave up to easy... There is no one can say that I'm not fighting for our relationship.
It's the only thing now that still has a small hope, now that I'm no longer is alive at home. 
