  I’m so mad at my mother…yeah she’s back :( She has hardly walked in the door before we start arguing.
She has hid my razors so I can’t shave my legs (or cut) She is telling me she’ll only give me one at a time, and that she wants it back afterwards… I hate being treated like that. I’m not a child! I’ve asked her if I could hold a party next weekend, but she’ll only let me hold a small one!
I hate her! But I know a couple of ways to let her give me permission ;) I can just say that if I can’t hold this party, then I’ll get really miserable, and get depressed again. I know it’s cruel, but I don’t give a damn anymore. Lars has promised me to come over Sunday evening for a movie night and a beer. He couldn’t come today cuz he was going to a party elsewhere (funny how I’m suddenly depressed), but I’m really glad that we are becoming such good friends again, and now that he knows who I really am then I can relax around him and stop holding back.
I hope he doesn’t cancel on me cuz that would be to hard on me… My best friend Christina is coming over this evening; she called earlier and asked what I wanted as my present (she couldn’t afford one when it was my birthday) I think she is giving me some liqueur. Otherwise this is gonna be a really slow weekend… I’m still trying to lose weight, but it’s hard cuz I’m getting tempted everywhere What I ate today: 12:00 A sandwich 16:00 3 toast with lever pâté 18:00 a salad and some pasta I promise to write again tomorrow :) Tuesday 25 march Today I really freaked out.
I was afraid of my wait loss and started eating a lot What I ate today: 6:00 a bowl of serials 12:00 a sandwich 15:00 3 cream puff (flødeboller) cuz my boss held a competition between my and my colleague 18:00 3 pancakes with ice cream After that I freaked out again.
Disgusted by myself I started running. I ran even though my legs were acing as hell. I ran until My lungs gave in and it hurt so much that I couldn’t stand so I fell down and stared at the stars while I was trying to control my breathe. Later I talked to Lars on msn; he really made me feel better. For some reason he can always make me in a good mood.
I would also like to thank these friends who are there for me when I need them :) Michael (cuz he is the only one in my family who knows how it feels like, and can handle the truth) Lars (cuz he can always make me feel better, and he doesn’t judge me) Ambivalence (cuz he doesn’t make me feel like I’m the only one like me) And all those who doesn’t know, but are good to me so that my life is a little easier 
