  I am so incredibly bored. I hate staying home on a Saturday night. Lauren, Josh, and I were supposed to go bowling late last night, but we ended up not going.
Instead, I slept over my friend's house. Then I basically spent the entire day online. I started getting ticked off at installing greymatter because... ugh, I don't know, it's weird uploading stuff without using an FTP program. So then I gave up. 12 days until the first lacrosse game (It's away, ugh), and 16 until the Reel Big Fish concert (with Lucky Boys Confusion and Suburban Legends). On Monday, it will be exactly ten years since Kurt Cobain died... There's this girl that I used to be incredibly good friends with, but I don't know anymore. My friend wants everything to be the way it used to be between all of us. I try my best to be nice and talk to her, etc.
I don't know why I try so hard to remain friends with her, because she lies to me all the time, and always leaves me out of everything our group does. I don't trust her anymore, and I regret having trusted in the past, because I told her something no one should really know. My friend (who I shall not name) told me that the girl came up to her and told her I was leaving her out.
WTF, when? The only time I know of (and it was the ONLY time) was this time during study hall... I sat with Jamie instead, because we needed to do our science lab. Pure evil of me, right? I'm sure... I hate how our friendship seems so fake. It's not even a friendship. I feel bad for not even being sad that we don't have such a great relationship like we did. I don't even get why I'm not upset. Am I really that mean or is the friendship just never that great? I think I should stop talking about this person now. Even though she talks crap about me behind my back, I shouldn't stoop down to the same level as her.
I didn't say who it was that I was talking about... but still. She's not being a loyal friend towards me, but that's no reason why I shouldn't be a loyal friend towards her still. 
