  can you believe this guy????? Sayang, In the real world, I so speak like a typical Singaporean (that may sound very cinak to you, but I'm proud of that).
That is who I am, although you might find it pathetic. I was a Singaporean (now a Malaysian... but I guess you know that) and no matter what, deep inside I am still a Singaporean. Like, perhaps we can meet for a cuppa. Then you can tell to my face lah whatever you think is not right about me.
From my experience, even meek looking akak-akak tudung, adik-adik jambu and abang-abang skema can turn into a monster in chatrooms, newsgroups and e-mails. Okay now... enuf bitching. From you lah. Penat lah wei.. Ala2 if you're my drag queen friends takper tau... I know it's the side effects of taking too much hormon :) Now I want to know more about you. Delia sayang, you asal mana (lepas ni jangan marah kalau I cakap Melayu pulak tau!). Umur berapa? Kalau diberikan tiga buku... buku apa you akan pilih untuk ke sebuah pulau ala2 Survivor?
You tak suka dengan kerja you sekarang... beritahu kat I apa you suka buat sebenarnya. I mean now. Take this particular question seriously as if you are talking to someone that is looking for a job. Delia wrote: Dearest Nizam, Naw, I am just pissed at your flippancy. If more people thought of what they have to say without thinking thoroughly first, THAT would make this place into a happier shinier world.
Anyways, I do not claim to 'expect great things' from you. I am only expecting forethought. You have a measurable amount of traffic in your website daily, and if you do not take your words with gravity there is probably some idiot who read your blog that does. Think about that. Be responsible to the integrity of your work and don't just lambast anything you like just because you imagine your readers don't 'expect great things' from you.
And if my Emails sound so terribly ominous to you, forget it. You've been buttered up too much by other visitors you can't even see straight (no pun intended). This is honest advice, from one writer to another. If taking my words and calling them 'negativity' will help you sleep easier with yourself at night, fine. Yours truly, Delia p/s You shirking away from my questions and starting off your email with pidgin English-Chinese is pathetic. p/p/s I hate my job so just save your 'I'm just kidding! ' insults to someone who does give a fuck about feng shui.
p/p/p/s i AM being constructive. ----- Original Message ----- From: Nizam Zakaria To: Delia Sent: Thursday, April 08, 2004 3:28 PM Subject: Re: Fiction Why you so marah2 one... I just don't get you. And please, don't expect great things from me. I don't deserve that. I do not take my writing seriously. If you doubt that, fine. But I guess you don't know me that well.
And really... why the anger towards me? Why all these negativity? Maybe... you should shift your table or something. You know, bad feng shui :) (and please... this is a joke. I really mean it!!! ) Okay like this lah... If I'm your puching bag and you want to turn me into a free theraphy session for whatever issue that you are facing... Don't write back.
I hate the idea of you wasting your time like this writing to me. Like, whatever for, right? If you want, we can start by you putting a stop to all the insults you've thrown at me and we can talk about other things that are more constructive. You know what? I'll be more than happy to accept you as a friend and listen to your part of the story and arguments. Nizam "shiny happy people" Zakaria (No... I'm not on valium. I guess, I must have excellent feng shui at home and at work) Delia wrote: Dear Nizam, So I take it you don't want your work to be taken seriously?
I doubt that. If you do want to protect your opinion, I think a jab at your sexual orientation is too black and white. As a self-proclaimed critic of the arts, I was anticipating something better than that from you. Are you telling me that your imagination as a child was not spurred by children's tales (fiction, by the way) in television, books, film? Are you so sure that who you are right has nothing to do with works written by your favorite authors (fiction again.)? Are you so sure that your grasp of language has not been altered or bettered as a byproduct of your fondness for books? Chew on that and get back to me. Truly, Delia p/s Crediting bad grammar as a result to being well-read is pretty lame too.
----- Original Message ----- From: Nizam Zakaria To: delia@fengshuitimes.com Sent: Thursday, April 08, 2004 1:37 PM Subject: Fiction No... Works of fiction can never change a person's life. Or else... After reading so many books that have so many heterosexual characters in it, I should be straight by, now innit? Or at least, be able to write with proper grammar, even for something as mundane as a personal blog.
Haiyoh... why you take things so seriously lah dear? So salah one if you take my writings seriously. Regards, Nizam 
