  urlLink http://www.livejournal.com/users/diffkindofgenes/12073.html?view=30505#t30505 if you want the whole story behind the quote Xtine used, its there.
As for the rest of her accusations, they're true. I won't hide that anymore, I was stupid. Out of line and emotionless. I only just realized how much I was hurting my friends when the escapade with Steph happened. I've asked my friends for help to fix this in myself, and I've apologized and asked for forgiveness. I'm not going to say anything against what she wrote there, its all true. I want you all to go read it, then you can know what I've done.
I don't know when I changed into such a jerk, I really don't. I hate this new me, I hate it. You have no idea how much I hate hurting people, and how much I've prayed for God to help me get out of this rut. I want out. If anyone still has any respect for me after reading that, please help me. what a great end to this day. 
