  6:55 a.m. Sunday, Day 139. Slept well, feel good, a little burny-eyed. 1749 calories yesterday, very good for a Saturday and a drinking day. I also have almost 3,000 calories available for today, if I chose to eat that much! I'm thinking I'll try to avoid it... 3:33 p.m.
I feel awfully depressed. I was going through some photos to upload, so you all can see them (which by the way are urlLink here ) and I was, as always, truly horrified at how I look. I so hate myself for thinking that, I so very much don't want to allow myself that self-loathing, and yet, my god, how does anyone get around it? I'm so saddened by this, I promise I'm going to write about it later in depth, but right now I don't have the energy. And tomorrow, when I'm in a better mood, I will add my photo link to my blog template and be all happy and excited about it. Really, I will. * Apu to Homer. 
