  Ok I think that I might be in serious need of some anti-depressants. Maybe I should go to the doctor. HOW can I be a psychiatrist if I have issues of my own? But maybe because I am aware of my personal issues, it makes it different.
My Big Fat List of Issues: 1. I am very non-confrontational 2. I never tell anybody how I really feel 3. I keep everything inside, until somebody asks me directly what's wrong, and then I have a total breakdown and start crying and I feel like an idiot. 4. My issues are not as big as I make them out to be, it's just a habit of mine I guess. 5. I am very insecure 6. I have some wired social anxiety thing where it makes me nervous to be one on one with people 7. I want to cry whenever a teacher calls on me and I don't know the answer 8. I almost always feel like everybody is putting on a facade around me Oy.
Maybe I should tell the my parents about this list, but I'm not going to. (see #2). 
