  i'm reading a devotional on the book of Romans. sigh. it's pretty hard reading coz the book seems to be speaking about me. well, basically the moral of the story is to be the light to the lost. meaning that as a christian, i should behave in a manner where my life shows Christ in me. unfortunately, my life style is definitely not like that of a christian. i know what are the things i have to change and all but yet actually doing them is so difficult. yeah, i know the drill... i'm supposed to submit to God and let Him do the work. but that is so much easier said than done.
How to submit when the current life style is so enjoyable? ok even if i put pleasure aside, it seems as if my character has taken shape and refuse to change. a couple of things i try to change all seem to be impossible. ok. i'm not undermining the power of God. of course God could change me in a instant if He wanted to. but apparently He wants me to change out of my own free will.
That is the hard part. i wish He would just make me.
sigh.
Dear Heavenly Father. &nbsp; Thank You for Your sacrifice of love for me. Help me to love You back with all my heart. Put in me the conviction and strength to change for the glory of Your name. I place myself in Your loving hands. &nbsp; In Jesus' name, Amen 
