  i think im becoming rather selfish. It's starting to bother me more and more that i'm expected to spend a certain amount of time each day being social and helping others feel good about themselves.
a little part of me is screaming "what about me??? " It's a horrid little cycle really, cause i feel good about myself when i make otehr ppl happy, but if im unhappy i cannot effetively make others happy, therefore i become more unhappy as a result of previously mentioned failure...and then it's just bad and overly complicated. i need a BREAK. i wonder if i could run away for a couple days and then come back acting like nothin happened. teehee. my parents would probably throw me into the pavilion and pump me full of drugs. i feel kinda like a prisoner. nooo. stereotypical teenage statement. DAMN ME. no more of this writing bussiness. i dont like the way i sound. 
