  I am so messed up. And confused. About myself. Someone once said "We barely knew each other, we didn't know ourselves. " So true. I have no idea why I am this way. I often wonder "Why does [insert name] think that way? " New question. Why do I think this way. Not necessarily "Why do I think about that particular thing? " but rather "Why do my thought processes occur this way rather than another way? " I wish I could control how and what I thought about. 
