  There is a famous zen parable that goes something like this; A university professor went to visit a famous Zen master. While the master quietly served tea, the professor talked about Zen. The master poured the visitor's cup to the brim, and then kept pouring. The professor watched the overflowing cup until he could no longer restrain himself. "It's overfull! No more will go in!
" the professor blurted. "You are like this cup," the master replied, "How can I show you Zen unless you first empty your cup. " I am continually reminded how true this is. If you keep your cup empty - if you can release all preconceived notions, desires, fears, etc - then there are always new things to learn and experience. New ways in which to grow as a person. Lately i am reminded that life can always surprise you.
No matter what you have seen or done, no matter where you are or have been. I am moving to New Orleans this week; next week at the latest. I feel in every facet of my being that this transition is something more than just a transition. It is the beginning of a whole new movement in my life. It feels good. I feel like i have made peace with everything that has come before in my life.
This decision is one that is made with no attatchments to what came before and no reservations. It feels good. Every thing in me tells me this is good and right and pure. As i type this, I am getting ready to go find a new box for me and Nobi in NO. Life has thrown me another surprise as well. One for which i do not think i can find the words.
I gave up looking for someone a long time ago. I have been in relationships ect after i gave up - but at heart i was a tourist. Just passing through. This was fine with me. I accepted it. Made my peace.
I have found someone who makes me believe again that maybe the passion that makes life life may just be something that can be shared after all. Full Circle. As I said - i do not have the words... Some of the things i feel seem familiar - like something remembered from childhood... but in all honesty, i have no precedent for this. Nothing to which to refer. Nothing to which i can compare such openness.
No need. No rush. Nothing assumed - just a soul laid bare. Completely open. Me. Truly me.
No pretensions or games. Last night she said "You feel different under the eyes of someone who really sees you. " I still feel as though i am wondering about in some amount of disbelief. Is this really happening? I guess you can always empty your cup more. To say anything more would be to debase the feeling of the thing; so i will leave it for now. 
