  >> AHHHHHHHHHH this is some totally bogus shit. i am so totally bummed. same reason no change in my demeanor. goddamn i am gonna say it again. i suck. well maybe i dont.
i dunno. what is wrong with me. maybe nothin. i dunno. i hope its all gonna work out. but i dunno.
this sucks man. my friends accuse me of shit. i dont need this crap right now. i got enough shit running through my head. its too much the hamster cant handle it. he is gonna die.
i mean my friends try and help me but it doesnt usually work. u know how many times abe has said " lets go hit on chicks". shit thats not gonna work. anyone who knows me knows that that isnt how i do things. i have no self-esteem. u know how i got my first girlfriend sarah.
she asked me to the dance and then we started goin out. iy wasnt me. and she turned out to be a bitch. and whats more is when we were goin out i was at her house and when she said lets go to my room i apparently said "why". whatever. life still sucks man i dont think anything will ever work out for me.
at least not in the immediate future. i hope that everything works out for my friends especially abe. but whatever >> 
