  i suddenly m so tired. not coz i juz returned from a chalet wif insufficient sleep. tat is physical. this feels different. mental. sorta emotional,
possibly? tired of this reality. the chalet reality seemed so perfect, in spite of its obvious flaws. perhaps i m juz suffering from some sorta withdrawal symptom, but rarely,
so rarely do i feel so sick of reality. even tho much of the time in the chalet was somehow wasted, it seemed so much better. not becoz of pool, nor the cycling, nor the bbq.
it wasnt any of those inanimate factors. it was the ppl. i dunno how to say it. u gotta experience it to understand wat i m sayin. our memories r worth their value not becoz of the things. we all know how ez it is to forget things.
but oddly, it is so much harder to forget the ppl. there r exceptions, i concede. but more often it is the human factor that brings joy.  or perhaps,
i m juz so physically tired tat my mind is affected greatly.
