  i wont say what i did on friday night, b/c some ppl might not approve, but lets just say that after all was said and done, at about 2 in the morning, i was more depressed than i have been for a very long time. im afraid that im going to hurt myself again--but dont worry ppl. im trying to do everything possible to be happy, and surround myself with ppl so that i dont have a chance to do anything dangerous to myself. ive been hurt by too many ppl in such a short amount of time...time to pack up and jump ship?? ill figure it out by sunday--going shopping right now. 
