  I'm a little upset at the moment - feeling like a complete loser, like a nobody. I know I've said this a gagillion times, and I'm actually sick of myself, but there's got to be something that I can do to make things different, to feel important and wanted. I can say that I love myself more, that's a good thing, but I also feel like 30 is gaining on me and I better do something quick before I get there and look back over my life and realize I still havent' done a damn thing with it.
I'm seriously afraid I'll be one of those old people who regret not doing the things they want to do. I can't really say I've done much of anything. About a week and a half to go before I turn 27. that gives me 3 years including this one to get it together. That's it. 3 years and counting. I'm honestly trying not to compare myself to those around me, but I can't help but think that for myself, and myself only, I should be doing something other than going to school all the damn time, never leaving, never trying, never getting anything done.
I can't pay my bills. I have to practice all the time, but I can't do that if I have to work to pay the bills that are stacking up one after the other after the other after the other. It's annoying - and ..... heartbreaking....actually. I have to do something. 
