  ( I wonder what kind of google hits I will get with that title?  & nbsp;  Anyway,  I am sitting here,
 in the public library,  unshowered,  unshaven,  and maybe just a little stinky,  next to a guy who smells like an ashtray& nbsp;
and is coughing up nasty stuff. nbsp;  And I am feeling sorry for myself because I have been rejected or I have rejected every job that has come my way. nbsp;  I have about 3 weeks left before I get desperate for a job -  but too late,
 I am already a little bit desperate. nbsp;  & nbsp;  So I sit down at the computer and go to check my email,  and I have 24 messages waiting in there -
 20 of which ( of course)  are junk mail,  2 are advertising parties in my ward ( two thumbs down)  and the last two of which almost made me cry (
I love you guys! nbsp;  I so badly needed an uplifing today ( even though I didn't know it)  and there it is,  in my email box.
nbsp;  It is absolutely amazing to me that& nbsp; HF can take one person who I know only via the telephone line and another person who just randomly found my site somehow and have them say just the things I need to hear. nbsp;  I hope that I am in tune enough to know when He is asking me to do the same (
sadly,  I think I am sorely lacking in that area)  & nbsp;  So,  I didn't get the job I really wanted (
obviously from my previous comment)  and I didn't get another job that I thought I would but didn't really want.  and I have only one more prospect on the horizon. nbsp;  An interview in central Phoenix this afternoon -  part time,
 great pay. nbsp;  Who knows,  maybe its the one I have been looking for. nbsp; nbsp;
 And temp jobs suck.  & nbsp;  Enough about the job search -  I am sure everyone is sick of my whining.  &
nbsp;  I started a home improvement project on Friday night. nbsp;  I started to clean the cupboards and walls above my washer and dryer,  which are in my kitchen,  and I discovered how absolutely disgusting they were.
nbsp;  ( Backstory -  I live in a huge 45 year old townhouse with original fixtures.  I have an original& nbsp;
pink porcelain sink in the kitchen and an original powder blue toilet in one of the bathrooms,  among other really cool things. nbsp;  It's awesome. nbsp;  This spawned a massive cupboard cleaning frenzy,
 which included three trips to the Home Depot for cleaning solvent and paint ( the whole project totalling about $ 20,  cha ching! nbsp;  .
 ok,  and 20 hours of hard labor) nbsp; removal of all of the cabinet doors,  drawers& nbsp;
and handles,  and an incredibly dishevled house. nbsp;  ( Ok,  I cleaned and refinished the cupboard fronts and painted the inside of the cupboards.
nbsp;  I have plans to re- paint the pulls as well) nbsp;  I am most of the way done.  just a couple of drawers left to clean and everything to wipe down.
 ok,  and maybe a little bit more painting,  and my kitchen looks& nbsp; INCREDIBLE! nbsp;
 I should have taken before and after pictures.  Maybe I still will. nbsp;  I am very excited about how good it looks ( obviously,  I am a freak with ocd)
 & nbsp;  My friend Josiah thinks that I am sexually frustrated. nbsp;  & nbsp;
 Anyway,  I can't wait to& nbsp; get done and put everything back. nbsp;  I have plans&
nbsp; for the rest of the house,  and I am dying to vacuum and clean the neglected parts of the house. nbsp;  I think I am going to refinish my front door -  it's disgusting.
 & nbsp;  Ok,  so if frenzied cleaning& nbsp; is a sign&
nbsp; of said frustration,  then I am officially diagnosed. nbsp;  & nbsp;
 But upon retrospection,  what Law- of- Chastity- abiding,  current-
temple- recommend- holding,  unmarried,  unattached,  no-
prospects- even- on- the- distant- horizon,
 has- more- casual- friends- than- casual-
dates,  every- time- she- goes- on-
a- date- she- asks- him,  Mormon over the age of.
 oh,  24. 8 or so isn't ? nbsp;  ( for those of you interested,
 this scenario is WAY more common than one might think,  and certainly way more common than one should expect)  & nbsp;  Yeah. nbsp;
 Watch out. nbsp;  I am not getting any,  I am not going to get some anytime soon,  and I might cause some serious damage. nbsp;
 & nbsp;  When I clean& nbsp; the remaining flat surfaces of my home. nbsp;
