  Another day passed just like the others, but today was sad. more sad. i don't understand wat's wrong wif myself. y should i feel sad? i shouldn't be. my life is as peaceful and as joyful as it could be, but wat's really tt something which made me feel so empty?
these questions had been circling in my head like irritating flies which i don't noe the reason y they r even there. i prayed. i talked. i sang. i tried to indulge myself into every single possible thing which i can think of doing, but nothing seemed to work. it was just there, it was still there... i can't help going into a trance everytime when i m not doing anything.
i didn't give a response when my frenz asked me things (sori guys). i couldn't even slp well at night, been bugged by so many things in my head. maybe i do noe wat it was... maybe i don't want to acknowledge it. maybe... maybe... looking at the mirror, i saw tt gal wif a smirk on her face. it was a smirk of stupidity. mocking at me, telling me to accept some truth which i needed to accept n stop living in a self-denial state.
the chanting of "the world is not perfect" hit me wif force. it's not as if this was the first time i heard tt the world is imperfect but rather the first time when i realise tt the truth hurts. it hurts so much tt i was shocked, terrified n i did not noe wat to do... y r we often feel helpless when we see our frenz in need? y r we always running away from reality? y r we not facing our problems? y is it harder to practice wat is said?
God only help those who help himself... i noe tt n i should help myself. i will be strong to my faith n try not to be very in tacked to my frenz moods. i will learn from each mistake i make n stand strong to prove tt my life is worth living for... i promise myself this tt i'll try... but will u? ~In Life, it doesn't matter who you are, but whether someone appreciates you for what you are, accepts you and loves you unconditionally. A Real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks away.~ ::Obstacles can't stop you. Problems can't stop you.
Most of all other people can't stop you. Only you can stop you... let us not be a burden to ourselves n always be persistant...:: p/s: i want to take this chance to encourage n apologize to someone who has a very special place in my heart. i m sori tt i can't do anything to help n sometimes i juz make a mess out of it. really veri sori. plz stay strong n have faith. everything will soon be over n there'll always be sun after a storm.
^_^ even though i have sad moments too, but i try my best to overcome it. so muz u! 
