  mmm day off !! to bad its rainy and pretty blah outside. would have liked to be doing something besides this. its monster truck weekend...i want to go but i dont seem to know anyone that is free that wants to go. i have been playing with the idea of asking gary...im sure he would be into that...but im pretty sure he would say no and im still being a sensitive girl so thats not something i want to hear. i wanted to go see him the other night so i asked him what he thought and he said" do what you want" now to me that says fuck no i dont want to see you. if i say that to someone it means i dont like you very much but i dont want to listen to you bitch about me saying no...he says thats not what he ment at all and that i always read into things to much. dont really know. i wish he would have just said yes or something simple. as weird as it was last time i just might go out with annmarie tonight.
she has been asking all week and i was hesitant to give her an answer just in case something better came up...i know thats mean..but nothing has so far so i might as well hang out with her...maybe she wont girly freak on me this time....wishful thinking! or maybe girl sex is what i need and will satisfy me for a bit... 
