  How do we move on now? How do we live? We must endure, and we know we will… but how? I believe that the majority of us feel that some sort of war is eminent. Maybe so, but where does that leave us civilians? How do we support our country in our greatest capacity.
I work in a part (albeit small, but vital) of defense. But being such a new member to this group, am I better suited for a military position? I spoke with a friend of mine and she shuttered at the idea, although understanding my reasons…. I mean how could you not. Our beautiful country is hurting, and she needs help. I only hope that I will step up and help her in the most productive facility in my power. So I have pondered whether the Army corp. of engineers is the place where I could do the most good in backing our great nation. I am not the most physically adept person, but I consider myself fairly intelligent, and resilient. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not running out tomorrow to enlist, but I am considering it, not as a career, but rather as an aide to America in its time of need.
How could I not? When children are afraid of visiting grandparents, and grown men are afraid of what’s around the corner, action needs to be taken, and, as we’ve been told, it will be. I only hope that they’ll take me… I won’t deny my sexuality, but I do wish to help my country. I’m sure many homosexual Americans agree with me in saying that we are hurting just as much as the rest of America (contrary to what Falwell’s recent interview on the 700 club may have referenced).
Obviously the future weeks will shed some light on this. I attended a candle lighting vigil tonight at the Lincoln Memorial, and it was breathtaking. To see all those people grieving was incredible. To see thousands with candles is powerful enough, but to see them with our Nation’s capitol and most beloved memorials as their backdrop was immaculate. It was inspiring to say the least, drawing upon those long since dormant feelings of patriotism that we put in drawers for days marked on the calendar marked with stars… Well every day is marked with a star; it just took a little pointing to notice them… Well, the stars are out tonight. 
