  As you can tell from the post earlier, I spent most of the day resenting the work I do. I feel unsatisfied, disconnected and disjointed with my world.
I say my world because we all live in our own world according to our perceptions, biases and prejudices. It's all about the glass half full or half empty. Those who debate which is which are missing the point. Who cares if it's half full or half empty. Fill it up or drink the rest because either way half is being wasted.
I finished reading Joyce's A Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man. Fascinating read. I fear I have missed some of the undertones and will have to re-read it again soon. It's a very dense book about many topics of concern to Joyce as an artist. At times I felt like he was writing about me. "He would create proudly out of the freedom and power of his soul...there was a lust of wandering in his feet that burned to set out for the ends of the earth. On! On! his heart seemed to cry. " It's hard to imagine some people see very little power or beauty in words. I feel sorry for those who fail to see it, experience the sheer exhilaration of juggling a phrase on the tongue and rolling it around in the mind.
Pure joy! Take the beginning stanza from Poe's The Raven: Once upon a midnight dreary, while I pondered, weak and weary, Over many a quaint and curious volume of forgotten lore— While I nodded, nearly napping, suddenly there came a tapping, As if someone gently rapping, rapping at my chamber door. "'Tis some visitor," I muttered, "tapping at my chamber door— Only this and nothing more. " How can someone not become overwhelmed with the grace of the author; the skill and talent showcased in so few words. Amazing! Update on the Kool-Aid test. It worked but not real well. I was able to turn the copper tone to a light red. I think it would really work if I had bleached first as suggested. I've applied the Kool-Aid mix again tonight and will leave it on much longer (4 hours the first time).
The directions said leaving the stuff on as long as possible is advisable for maximum colouration. 
