  like i said in my last blog.. it's all about national service. does everyone in life go through depression? i know i do. and here i am feeling that same shitty feeling even though nothing bad happened to me or to the ppl around me. i read that depression is a disease and it can be treated. maybe my cure is to escape the clutches and chains of the government and be free.
i heard sfb is going to sponsor half of the budget if any foreign director came to singapore to shoot. but they won't support any local filmaker. i heard they want to turn this country into an art city and sport city but again they won't support it. strict censorship. how to be artistic? strict education.
how to be champions in sports? the singapore pledge has the word equality mentioned. how can i sign for the saf if they show no justice and equality? navy - muslims are out of bounds. air force - no muslim fighter pilots. army - none in combat engineer, or scouts or commandos(maybe one or two).
are we not good enough? reason they give - our neighbourong countries are muslim countries. so does that mean when there's any war against these countries, we won't fight for singapore? how can i love a country which won't trust it's own citizens? 
