  Once upon a time finally, my cd arrived. i was so excited, i tore open the packaging and put it in rite away, i had already listened to the whole thing before britt arrived, and then we listened to it again. it was my first weekday since track ended, and i enjoyed having the whole afternoon to do whatever i wanted. i did this: ~ate shrimp cocktail ~listened to my new cd ~made sno-cones ~played mario for super nintendo we enjoyed it very much, and i look forward to many more lazy afternoons filled with laughter with one of my dearest friends.
now that my cd is here, one period of waiting has ended, only to let another begin. the 2nd half of the 2 part season finale of the inferno is next monday.....argh....i wanna see it sooo bad, but i know i'll forget about it by tomorrow, so i'm not bothered. i was having a discussion with my brother about his ex girlfriend today, and it left me feeling rather unsettled. she apparently has gotten into drugs, and i'm not talking the casual weekend weed and alcohol. I mean drugs of a more frightening variety.
my brother heard it through the grapevine, and he is very upset. but he knows there is nothing he can do to help. He is no longer a part of her life. it makes me sad,i mean the two of them used to be my hope. they were proof that relationships can work, and love can be all its cracked up to be in the movies. It can make you happy and change your whole life. but what happens when it ends? most often at least one of the two parties is left in a mess, sad and worried that they will never be normal again.
was the relationship worth the pain? is it worth the risk? sometimes i feel that it is better not to get attached, if you dont care about someone you cant get hurt, correct? but then what happens when you need someone....who will be there if you dont let anyone close to you? i suppose love is just inevitable...i mean we dont really choose it do we? we can try to deny it, but the feeling will still be there. perhaps it is better to just embrace it. no use fighting something that will always beat you. 
