  I dont understand is it coincidence that every 2 weeks we lose someone close to us? Is it just by chance that every 14 days we prepare for another funeral another trip to the cemetery? I dont know i wish i did i would give anything to know just to prepare, just to have some chance to keep myself from falling apart.
I need to just crumble but i cant now, i cant add my pain to everyone elses but i just need to help them and i cant do that if im hurting so i just can not hurt anymore. I have to put myself on teh back burner and take care of krystal, kerri, cory and everyone and anyone else who is hurting then i can help myself. I just have to remember to always put others first. 
