  I'm thinking those thoughs again, god dman this all, thinking about cutting again. Jessica, if you are out there and reading this, hold me, I need it. I hope I can keep my promise ... Damn it, why do my parents have to be the way they are, don't they see it's destroying me? Your forum's down, you're not on AIM, I feel so cut off from my one sense of happiness... [update]: I did get on aim to talk with Kat though which helped my flagging spirits ... she's such a kind woman ... 
