  This morning I woke up in an undefined mood. I can't really tell how I feel. Maybe my mood is neutral. I can't say that I am in a good mood; but I don't think I am in a bad one either. I am trying to decide what to have for lunch today.
There is so much to choose from since I am away from my small town life, and on vacation in a big city. Mr.Goodcents seems to be on the top of my list right now.....turkey on wheat....mmmmm good. Chipotle is second on the list.....veggie burrito in a bowl. Who knows. I am so indecisive that I may end up eating something totally different. I washed my hair this morning and it is soooo curly.
It's cute. I think I may keep it this way for a little while. Nothing else is new here. I am ready to sleep in my own bed again. Haven't done that since Thursday night, and that was only for a few hours. I've been thinking alot about an ex of mine We just broke up not long ago. I happen to still have a great friendship with this person, but I don't know if it's enough for me.
There is so much attraction there and I just want to act on it in some kind of way. I really am having a hard time accepting the fact that its over. I miss what we had but I have got to move on. I have to, for the sake of my sanity. If I don't hear from this particular person daily, I feel empty. I shouldn't feel this way when I know that its over. I wish we could try again, but here I go being indenial and unrealistic AGAIN. I think that I am just sick of being lonely. I want to feel wanted. I want to feel loved. Where do I search to find that? Clubs are not a good place to find a companion. They are ok if you are looking for immediate action, but not a solid relationship.
I think I am a great person with alot to offer to any relationship. I just wish others could see that. Back to my ex. I don't know what to think. It makes me sad just thinking about it. I want someone that I can share my experiences with, whether they are happy or sad. I just want someone that I can spend quality time with. I don't want marriage, or anything too serious, but I want someone to spend my time with. Well, that's all for now. 
