  I woke up in a weird mood this morning. Part of me feels mad at myself for flipping out on someone that I care so much for last night.
I have allowed my personal life incidents to cause bitterness in my overall attitude, thus creating negativity in every interaction that I have with human beings. Most of it is to blame on me. I can't control my bitterness and it often lets loose on the least deserving people. The people who deserve from me get only silence and non-recognition. Why can't I take my frustrations out on them.
Though this is a journal, I want to take time out to apologize to "S" for flipping out last night. I love you dearly and I really want things to be ok with us. I am going through alot. You know exactly what I am going through with "K" and I am glad that you are there to listen. However, you don't deserve to be the recipient of my anger. I am sorry. I really am. I hope that my sudden anger explosion didn't create any problems with us.
I am on a "I hate people" mission, but you are one person that I know that I love and I know that you care for me. I wouldn't want to risk that. I apologize from way deep down inside. Please forgive me. Well, I am on the go. 
