  Today everything that I done, all wrong. Everything I did, I got bad critisms. Which not helping. My sous chef is on leave. Leaving this guy in charged. I've been doing most of the stuffs for buffet today.
Partnering with this guy which I totally disregard. And I've been doing his jobs from taking stuff from chiller to cleaning up the buffet. He disspear after his lunch. Which I had to clean up everything. I been running around, back and forth. This guy whom incharge, keep giving me new order before I even had to to my current job half-way.
Which I had to done it very quick. I'm not sure until where should I do for each task. But usually, for anyone else, they just simply put the sauces on the pick-up table and someone in the kitchen wrap it up. But mine is totally different. I assumed that someone might help me, but not. He blame me.
Now I know that, I had to finish everything by my own. I can't depend on from these people. And even I helped them, I never get thanks, but instead got the blame. How long should I stay on? I'm not sure. But what Karen C told me, I have to be strong.
Be strong with myself not to give-up easily. Although I'm not happy with it, but I have to. To keep my mom happy coz I'm working even right now, they are not respect me and I have to put my ego to the ground level. And everything that happened to me each day, I keep myself thinking that I know one day I will be better that everyone in this Hilton kitchen. And when I do, I will come back to this kitchen and shows that who I am. 
