  i'll really be surprised if i still have a job on july 2 :) here we go, part 4: so as i was saying, if you've actually followed any train of thought there.. things rock in my life. haven't got an ounce of focus though. it's been like this for a few days, the ODDEST things have been popping into my head as of late!!
gotta get some focus sometime soon :( but until then... :) i really have a problem with women pastors, don't know why, i think i'm just traditional by nature and i prefer male pastors. yet my whole life i've wanted to be a little speaker and go around to different places like schools and motivate people towards success, and lately that's been more directed to leading in a church. how twisted is that? and it's tied into the writing thing, and now when i wake up in the middle of the night with a million thoughts to write down, it's more in line with preachy speeches. all centered around core sayings which i'm known for, like 'happiness comes from happenings, joy comes from the Spirit' and 'always be grateful for what you have, never be hateful for what you haven't', and my favorite as of late is 'the inner longing you're feeling can't be fulfilled by outside things'.
one day i'll attempt to get them all uploaded here, right now they're half in my head, half in my heart, and the other half (lol) on my laptop. God help me if anything ever happens to it!! so i also found out something about speaking in tongues, apparently not everyone's up to that. i encounter it HEAVILY on sunday nights, i'm still on my supernatural high on mondays and i was emailing my friend eric and it came out.
now he's a good God moving man, so i thought nothing of it. then last night at our bible study the question came up about women who are heavily into speaking in tongues generally becoming partners with men who don't. and in most modern day couples that wouldn't matter because most don't even pray together, kind of a 'do it in your own time' thing. but in spiritual couples that could very much make a difference, i know I'D want to experience that both alone and with my future husband, ya know?
and i definitely don't want a husband who doesn't do it at all or even believe in it. so i ask eric, and wouldn't you know he didn't want to answer or get into it. it came out that he doesn't do it. nice. while i was at it, i asked nick, who does, that was refreshing to hear.
i didn't email lance at all today but knowing his lifestyle he's not even saved i don't think. just interesting. i don't like being a novice much because i didn't realize not everyone who's heavily into God is heavily into the tongues thing. well time for another break, pt 5 to come :) 
