  "i know what you mean. i suppose you have to think of it that you will always be something she *knows* not someone she *knew* -- as hard as that may be.
it is a strange cycle to meet someone, fall in love, learn how to live with and around them and then have faith in whatever course that takes.
I suppose, as idealistic as it sounds, that you have to believe something better will come along, and while you will never discount or forget what you had with her, and what she contributed to your life, you are a better person in some way because of her -- and because of that you will never lose her. i have only recently reached the point in my life where i have wanted to make a step to move in with someone else, in that ultra-serious manner that is suggested by doing such a thing in this society.
my experiences have been so green, and ultimately i am still learning, as everyone is, what one wants, expects, or loves in someone else. i think ultimately it is someone that brings out the best in you -- and allows you to be who you are without changing you or themselves for it -- who has dreams that are as big as yours, and can be silly or serious in the same 5 minutes within the day. " 
